Noah's Mommy

Well last weekend I spent TOO much time relaxing and enjoying my weekend and time with Mat and his boys. I ended up forgetting that I had 2... YES TWO... papers due. I have only finished one and was going to work on it tonight but I have been doing so much between work, school, house chores, being a mom, etc. that I said "I am taking this last hour or so of the day for ME." That is why I haven't been around. I've been able to get on, read Melissa's blog, check email, and then school work. I have an upcoming surgery on the 23rd. I am not nervous at all and hoping to go back to work in about 2-3 da ys. Doc says a week but I say sooner. lol. It's a bit embarrassing (no Melissa, not that surgery again) and similar to what I've had in the past (yes, its involving the same area though). I might talk about it in person or on the phone though if you want to know you can call me. I've been getting emails from my cousin, Jeanna. She tries to be nice, th...

I'm so tired of the dishonest people and will be removing myself from their life. Yes, yet another person who I thought was changing -- didn't. They are being deceitful.

So I'm smiling. I can't stop. Seriously. I can't STOP! I am still so nervous though. Really nervous. So nervous that I haven't even kissed him yet. THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME. I love kissing more than anything.... well almost everything. But I'm so afraid to let the walls down. He seems too good for me or something. But alas we have been dating....

So my son's father told me he received an email. He copied me on it. He asked if this is wh at I meant by her not letting things go and trying to start trouble. I told him... to be his own judge but he is right. I am crying. Not because I believe what the words say, but because I still love her and hoped one day she'd quit being so stubborn and we could work things out. I don't know where she is getting her information from other than making it up in her head. Copy of Email: Timmy, I want to say congratulations!!! Second of all I want to say I am Millisa Thomason's cousin, Jeanna, I live down the road from her. Anyway I want to say I am sorry you had a baby with such a fucking psycho!! Yes, she is my cousin and all but she is NOT in my life in any way shape or form. I truly believe getting pregnant by you was to try and trap you in a relationship with her. I also believe you are Noah's dad, he looks just LIKE you!! I hope she does not try and fuck up your life...

Ha. I looked at the calendar and counted down the weeks till classes were done. Its just been a rough week with not getting paid for Monday and having to make up the hours so I keep my 20 hours minimum. Then I thought Id be able to get the full 3 hours tomorrow.... NOPE. I have to go to WIC to get coupons that don't exist anymore. lol. I hope they are fast. So as of today I've been to all of my classes. I'm not too worried about 3 of them. Not to say I'm not worried about those 3 though. But the one I went to tonight is going to be the 'hard' one. It is Finance Management. Ugh. The teacher is said to be great and he's been great so far (he is the same teacher that teaches my Tuesday class). So we will see. I am still waiting on 2 books. 2 books are not here. I thought it was 1 but it was 2. Ugh. Grrr. I do have to say that when the 3 eight week classes are done... I will be able to get some much needed organization done between October 21 an...

My eyes are getting heavy. They are wanting to close. I'm trying to write this to get it on the screen and saved. I'm just tired and I never intended to stay up this late but heaven forbid my books came today and I needed to get semi-caught up tonight. I will NEVER recommend buying books for school (textbooks of course) from amazon.com marketplace (the used books). THey took 2 weeks when they all said 2-5 days. Ugh. I even allowed for time cause of the holiday. Nope, it took them 14 days.... 15 if you count Labor day. That is not even CLOSE to the time they agreed when I submitted my order. I haven't even got all the books yet. The only thing I can say is they are CHEAP. I got one book for 50 cents. Instead of almost 40 dollars. I'm glad I did not pay more for it. Ugh. Like I need more BOOKS or stuff in my tiny house. So now that that is off my chest.... I can sleep. I haven't even talked to Mat much today. Maybe a half hour - forty-five minutes. Ah,...

I have no life. Well, I have no free time to enjoy life right now or for at least the next eight weeks. Drop off Noah 7 - 7:30am Work from 7:30 - 12pm Study from 12:30 - 3:00pm Pick up Noah 3 - 3:30pm Time with Noah / Eat 3:30pm - 5:30 T/Th Class - 6pm - 9pm