Red Alert
I'm not taking care of myself since I've had Noah. Not as well as I should. I do better for him but not myself. I need to start taking better care. I also realized that my recent surgery has a side effect. I am unable to go to the bathroom....at all. I don't know what or why -- but the past 2 surgeries has been the same way. so NO MORE SURGERIES for me. I can't stand it. I also have neglected myself and NOT rested even when doc wanted me to. I wasn't supposed to go back to work but I am already sinking financially (and possibly will lose my house) so I did what I HAD to do. I hope that in the end I don't lose my house. So I need support and don't know where to get it from. I want to eliminate Mountain Dew. I want to drink more water. I want to avoid fast food. I want to cook IN more. I want to do better for me cause if I do bad then I might not be here for Noah and that SCARES ME!!!