To Each in Time
I've been in this horrible situation in the past where I worry and stress and stress some more and most importantly I DID NOT TALK TO ANYONE until it was too late. Regardless of the details of the past events (since that is not important now). I just have to say I'm grateful that God has given me a chance to show that I am a changed woman. I no longer hold on to the hurt, anger, betrayal, stress, or worries. I simply ask God for his guidance and let him take the wheel.
One night I was sitting and relaxing when I realized that God had been making some prtty big changes in my life. For example, I asked him over and over to make it possible for my cousin and I to establish a frienship again. Months later, when I had actually accepted Christ into my life again (I did in 1996) and began to change how I thought, felt, and acted -- Changes Happened. Jeanna and I are now talking. I feared that she would not want to be friends because of Mandi and that hurt.
But I feel blessed and won't take anything for granted any more. I also wished I could just talk to Mandi. I know she is going through a lot with the one year anniversary of losing her grandmother and that is a hard thing to do. I pray for her each night to be able to get past all that is hurting her and to remember her Grandmother for all the good in her life. I tried to get a message to her through Jeanna but I don't think she wants to talk to me. That is fine, but I just NEED her to know that I'm not going to come between Jeanna and her. It is not my place. I just hope one day she can forgive me as I've forgiven everyone who has said negative or untrue things. Regardless of her feelings of never forgiving me -- I love her and if she came to me -- I would help her out in any way I could.
One night I was sitting and relaxing when I realized that God had been making some prtty big changes in my life. For example, I asked him over and over to make it possible for my cousin and I to establish a frienship again. Months later, when I had actually accepted Christ into my life again (I did in 1996) and began to change how I thought, felt, and acted -- Changes Happened. Jeanna and I are now talking. I feared that she would not want to be friends because of Mandi and that hurt.
But I feel blessed and won't take anything for granted any more. I also wished I could just talk to Mandi. I know she is going through a lot with the one year anniversary of losing her grandmother and that is a hard thing to do. I pray for her each night to be able to get past all that is hurting her and to remember her Grandmother for all the good in her life. I tried to get a message to her through Jeanna but I don't think she wants to talk to me. That is fine, but I just NEED her to know that I'm not going to come between Jeanna and her. It is not my place. I just hope one day she can forgive me as I've forgiven everyone who has said negative or untrue things. Regardless of her feelings of never forgiving me -- I love her and if she came to me -- I would help her out in any way I could.
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