Rainy Weekend

So this weekend has been raining from Friday afternoon till now and it still continues on. I've been doing some much needed relaxing and napping with Noah too. I am so tired and exhausted, not just by the normal's, but by other things as well. I said I was doing the ignoring before, but I got drawn back in by the 'semi-niceness' only to be drug down again. I won't allow myself to feel so much anger and hate for one person. I can't. My son can see and feel the mood I am in and that is not good.

So from now on, I refused to accept emails or any form of communication from Jeanna. I can't seem to find a common ground and its not to say that we couldn't, but she gets 'ideas' from her other friends that don't like me either and I just want her to talk to me and not involve any one else. But she can't so I let it all go and hope that one days YEARS from now things may be different.

Noah is saying more words now. He says "JeIka" (Jessica - day care provider), Mom Mom (grandma), Mom (mom, obviously), Bob, Du---k (duck, yes there is like a long pause between du and the k), and more too I just can't think of them right now.

I LOVE RAINY WEEKENDS.

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Unknown said…
I'm sorry you can't come to a resolution with her still. You'd think that it wouldn't be so hard to forgive (and maybe not forget, but still forgive!). I'll pray for you tonight and hope that you'll find peace on your end, no matter what. :)

I'd love a rainy weekend, too, if my basement didn't spring a leak and tornadoes stayed in the sky!
September 14, 2008 at 10:33 PM
Millisa said…
Oh yes Melissa I agree. The rain is nice when you don't have problems. Actually this is the first time we've had a storm that I didn't have a TREE in my yard. Surprising actually.

Yes, I hope that I can just make peace with not being able to control her actions and reactions. I need to let it go no matter how much it hurts.
September 15, 2008 at 1:01 PM
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