Noah's Mommy

8 Things that I am Looking forward to: 1. Feeling better today. I just don't know what is wrong but feeling like I am pregnant with morning sickness all over again just doesn't make for a good birthday. 2. Going to South Haven with Melissa & the family (even if it is just a day trip but a weekend trip would be fabulous) 3. Warmer weather so I could open my windows. 4. Noah being done with nursing (he's on week 3 and 3 days were eliminated). 5. Meeting Bill! We've been talking for a while & we have so much in common. 6. Getting back into the routine of doing Wii Fit again daily! 7. Getting all my papers at my desk organized since they've been out of wack since I was in school last fall. 8. Getting closer to God. 8 Things I Did Yesterday: 1. Worked! 2. Renewed my plates at SOS. 3. Went to lunch with my mother and grandfather. 4. Talked to Bill before he started golfing. 5. Went to get adjusted at Dr. Marks (Chriropractic office). 6. Cooked Dinner. 7. Played ...

I can't stop crying. Seriously. No one has been as generous as they were tonight. With money. I feel so blessed & thank Mr. Staples with all of my heart!

I've been in this horrible situation in the past where I worry and stress and stress some more and most importantly I DID NOT TALK TO ANYONE until it was too late. Regardless of the details of the past events (since that is not important now). I just have to say I'm grateful that God has given me a chance to show that I am a changed woman. I no longer hold on to the hurt, anger, betrayal, stress, or worries. I simply ask God for his guidance and let him take the wheel. One night I was sitting and relaxing when I realized that God had been making some prtty big changes in my life. For example, I asked him over and over to make it possible for my cousin and I to establish a frienship again. Months later, when I had actually accepted Christ into my life again (I did in 1996) and began to change how I thought, felt, and acted -- Changes Happened. Jeanna and I are now talking. I feared that she would not want to be friends because of Mandi and that hurt. But I feel blessed ...

Jeanna and I got together. The only thing that stopped me from crying is -- Noah. He broke up the slight awkwardness and helped to get us talking. I missed her. So very much. I thank God for his guidance in my life and for bringing us together. Hayley has grown so much. I missed her so much. I hope this isn't the last.

There are so many out there who just don't seem to realize that Christmas is about the birth of Christ and not gifts and lights and shopping. We should all just take a step back and look around at what we do during the holidays and ask why? I seriously only want more time with friends & family. If you want to give something -- give your time (watch their kids, help them with something they can't do them selves, etc.) Material possesions will be there long after we pass away. But those memories will always be there. God Bless You!

So this is Noah's First Holiday that he will actually be mobile. He is still fatherless in a sense. I mean we have established paturnity, but that is just a piece of paper if you will stating the DNA matches. I can't understand how someone who doesn't work can't find time to see Noah. He is the most precious gift in this life. I'm not sure and I've asked for God's guidance on this issue and have stopped worrying about it. I put the tree up today while Noah was at daycare. I figured after a long debate with myself that it would be a battle to try to decorate a tree with a 1.5 year old and no one else to help police (as Melissa said) him. So my tree and what few decorations I have are up. I did it in a record 1 hour 15 minutes (all the time I had). Anyways, I'm trying to better myself and have been taking steps in the right direction. I feel like I'm on the narrow path that isn't the easiest but it is the right one.