Noah's Mommy

I haven't been around much..... well the last time I posted was on my birthday in 2008 and now its just a week past my birthday in 2013!!! Figured I do this again 8 Things 8 Things that I am Looking forward to: 1. Noah being finished with school for the year (which means no more 5am days for 3 months) 2. Getting a car to replace the one I have that doesn't like me much! :) 3. Connecting more with my friends 4. Reading more of the Bible on a consistent basis 5. Organizing and getting rid of things I don't need 6. Possibly getting a puppy for Noah's birthday 7. Finding out what God wants for my romantic life 8. Learning to play the piano 8 Things I Did Yesterday: 1. Slept till 9am 2. Went shopping with my almost 6 year old son. 3. Ate Taco Bell 4. Bought my mom a full tank of gas (almost 70 dollars worth) 5. Watched a movie with Noah 6. Found out my fuse blew and my deep freezer wasn't working and i lost all my meat :( 7. My cousin is fixing my car to help me ...

8 Things that I am Looking forward to: 1. Feeling better today. I just don't know what is wrong but feeling like I am pregnant with morning sickness all over again just doesn't make for a good birthday. 2. Going to South Haven with Melissa & the family (even if it is just a day trip but a weekend trip would be fabulous) 3. Warmer weather so I could open my windows. 4. Noah being done with nursing (he's on week 3 and 3 days were eliminated). 5. Meeting Bill! We've been talking for a while & we have so much in common. 6. Getting back into the routine of doing Wii Fit again daily! 7. Getting all my papers at my desk organized since they've been out of wack since I was in school last fall. 8. Getting closer to God. 8 Things I Did Yesterday: 1. Worked! 2. Renewed my plates at SOS. 3. Went to lunch with my mother and grandfather. 4. Talked to Bill before he started golfing. 5. Went to get adjusted at Dr. Marks (Chriropractic office). 6. Cooked Dinner. 7. Played ...

I can't stop crying. Seriously. No one has been as generous as they were tonight. With money. I feel so blessed & thank Mr. Staples with all of my heart!

I've been in this horrible situation in the past where I worry and stress and stress some more and most importantly I DID NOT TALK TO ANYONE until it was too late. Regardless of the details of the past events (since that is not important now). I just have to say I'm grateful that God has given me a chance to show that I am a changed woman. I no longer hold on to the hurt, anger, betrayal, stress, or worries. I simply ask God for his guidance and let him take the wheel. One night I was sitting and relaxing when I realized that God had been making some prtty big changes in my life. For example, I asked him over and over to make it possible for my cousin and I to establish a frienship again. Months later, when I had actually accepted Christ into my life again (I did in 1996) and began to change how I thought, felt, and acted -- Changes Happened. Jeanna and I are now talking. I feared that she would not want to be friends because of Mandi and that hurt. But I feel blessed ...

Jeanna and I got together. The only thing that stopped me from crying is -- Noah. He broke up the slight awkwardness and helped to get us talking. I missed her. So very much. I thank God for his guidance in my life and for bringing us together. Hayley has grown so much. I missed her so much. I hope this isn't the last.

There are so many out there who just don't seem to realize that Christmas is about the birth of Christ and not gifts and lights and shopping. We should all just take a step back and look around at what we do during the holidays and ask why? I seriously only want more time with friends & family. If you want to give something -- give your time (watch their kids, help them with something they can't do them selves, etc.) Material possesions will be there long after we pass away. But those memories will always be there. God Bless You!

So this is Noah's First Holiday that he will actually be mobile. He is still fatherless in a sense. I mean we have established paturnity, but that is just a piece of paper if you will stating the DNA matches. I can't understand how someone who doesn't work can't find time to see Noah. He is the most precious gift in this life. I'm not sure and I've asked for God's guidance on this issue and have stopped worrying about it. I put the tree up today while Noah was at daycare. I figured after a long debate with myself that it would be a battle to try to decorate a tree with a 1.5 year old and no one else to help police (as Melissa said) him. So my tree and what few decorations I have are up. I did it in a record 1 hour 15 minutes (all the time I had). Anyways, I'm trying to better myself and have been taking steps in the right direction. I feel like I'm on the narrow path that isn't the easiest but it is the right one.

Thanksgiving Thanks There are these people in my lives that I'm so grateful for. There are these people that I couldn't get through each day without. Each day some people come in my life. Some days, and these are regrettable days, people leave my life. But each has a lesson. Each has a meaning. And each will always have a place in the end result of who I am. There is a saying that some people are here for a season, reason, or lifetime. Sometimes we don't realize that everyone in our life is not supposed to be there forever. Some help us through our trials and tribulations. Some give us support and guidance. Some teach us something that we might not have otherwise learnt. In the next 24 hours we have a day coming up called "Thanksgiving". During this time every year I try to really think about the past year and what has happened, who has been in my life. The good and bad. The old and new. The close and far. The related & not. This is my dedicat...

This life is a whirl wind. Today is Noah's 1.5 Bithday. =) He is exactly 18 months. Where does time go? Seriously things have changed so much since August 2006. For the better of course. Thanksgiving is soon. Like 2 days. eeeppp. Time with family. Thing is I am with them every day so its just another day but it makes me think of what I have. I wrote a little something that I am going to post on Thanksgiving. On Sunday I'm getting together with Melissa. I miss her. I'm getting tired and we all know (well, only cause I say it) he doesn't sleep good through the night. So I'm off to bed.

In the past few months I've been under a lot of stress, anxiety, fear, and hurt. I've not understood what happened and I realize now that I broke down and when I needed someone the most -- I didn't know who to turn to. So I turned to writing. It always helped me out in the past. I wrote things that were on my mind to hope that they would get out of my mind. Didn't work. It also didn't help with my words were twisted and used against me. Now -- Stop -- I'm not blaming anyone and I don't hate anyone. I have forgiven everyone who has ever done me wrong and I continue to be the nice person and be friendly with everyone. But to be completely honest -- I miss Jeanna. However, I don't miss the 'Best Friend' part, but rather the cousin. I've never been one to be close to too many people and family was/has been in that category. But Jeanna and I got close because I lived closer to her. No, I take that back. It is because I got pregnant an...

I've been slacking but I have good reason. I'm BUSY! I have officially paid off all of my credit card debt but one. However, that is the largest amount. BUT that eliminates about 20 calls a day. I'm all signed up for next semester. =) I have a new computer. The one I had was getting ready to kick the bucket, so I got a Dell Inspiron 1525 and my other laptop is now currently hooking my phone up (I use magicjack) so that is a real plus. I have so much to write but this new laptop keyboard is SO much different than my old one. NEW LIKE>......lol I'm off to bed. I just got Noah to sleep about 20 minutes ago. Hopefully he sleeps in some tomorrow before church.

And my vote is in! I voted for Change. A Much needed change.

I've been attending church weekly and getting more and more involved in the Church. I'm hoping once my classes end and I am doing all online classes that I can become more involved in the groups at church. I love it. I feel like the timing was right and I understand things much better now than I ever did in the aspect of life and God. Noah and I have been doing some much needed bonding lately (and no I'm not talking about nursing him). He has been cuddling more with me and giving me more signs that he loves me. I can't wait till the first time he tells me "I LOVE YOU".

So lets see.... My instinct. was RIGHT. I'm talking about Mat. Mr. I will wait for you. Mr. dont worry about being busy -- I understand. Mr. I like you and won't do anything to ruin that. Mr. I'm afraid my kids screwed things up by being rude and innappropriate on numerous occasions. Yeah, that guy. Let me explain. I talked to him about a month ago. It was the end of September. I said I HAD to focus on school and my son before anything else. He said that he understood. I told him that I was going to school for about another year. Not straight through or anything, but still! I told him that I wanted to take things slow and I might not call him as much. He never called me. I never called him. I was busy and did not realize this until about a month later. Then I mentioned it in here and the next week he showed up at my door. I thought -- WOW. Hmm. ok! He tried to make me feel so guilty for being busy. I told him to not do that and that I would call. He stayed o...

Noah was running around without a shirt on because it was so warm that day He was accidently involved in a pumpkin seed war and was NOT happy about it. Noah & I at Crystals House

I'm not going to lie. We did not Trick or Treat on Halloween. But wait.... We did go out to the Mall on the Saturday before (it was warm inside a building) and then... again on Thursday the 30th we went to the Trunk or Treat. So Noah got TOO much candy. I'm pretty amazed in all honesty. Weather was BEAUTIFUL for once. Noah was 'CHUCKY'. Because it was a costume that was free.

Noah really did a number on me yesterday. He cried so much, wiggled so much, slept so little. I'm just happy that tonight he is sleeping in his own bed. I'm tired. I doze off in class and that is not good. I haven't talked to Mat in like a month. Of course it took me that long to realize it because I've been busy and tired. Guess it wasn't meant to be... I am the opposite of disappointed kind of. I have been emailing my cousin. We are being civil -- even nice. Which is a step in the right direction. But its almost 9:30pm and I need to sleep....

Night One went horrible. Noah was up every 90-120 Minutes. Night Two went just as bad. Night Three --- He's still in my bed. Ugh.

Officially NOT in a bedroom anymore. AT least my bed that is. Well, me either. Let me explain. I am in a one bedroom house. And having problems with Noah sleeping through the night and I attribute it to us sleeping in the same room. So this afternoon, instead of studying for my Mid-Term (49 Finance Terms) I moved my BED into the living room by the computer and blocked the computer/bed area off with the gate that was once around just my computer. Noah's toys, bed, stuff is in the room. Noah has been sleeping in his bed till about 15-30 minutes after I get into bed. I've altered my time on when I go to bed thinking he was just waking up at the same time. But when I go to bed EARLY, or LATE by one hour each way... HE STILL WOKE UP. So tonight is a sort of test. I hope Noah will sleep better. I don't know. But I can hope. That is after I watch Grey's Anatomy!

Melissa tagged me. The idea is to list six random and odd facts about yourself. Since I don't now when I'll get the chance to do it, I'm just going to do it now, and then tag some other people to keep it moving. 1. I'm a leftie....and love that. But living in the right handed world I find myself doing more with my right hand than I thought. But the one thing I can't do left handed is bowl. I bowl right handed, and I've got a pretty good average when I bowl more than once a year. 2. Melissa mentioned something about eye brows and it got me to thinking that all my life I've never had them waxed in fear of the pain. I could not even think of doing it until after I had my son. That pain was far worse than waxing ever was. I have a real fear of pain... at least I used to... now that I've given birth it has opened my eyes to realize I never knew pain until I had a baby. 3. I crack my toes... all the time. I started about 8 years ago after I took my ...